honestly?

you know that stupid trust game they made kids play in school?  The one where you cross your arms over your chest and fall backwards with eyes closed... hoping the person behind you will catch you before you fall?

so much for trust in anyone

i'm done, i'm out

on feeling... improved

today i feel improved.

I was calm.  I was collected.  The ex was, thankfully, lucid.  The children get to come home this weekend.  It means more expense and a tighter budget, but I'm glad to have them on their way soon.  I've missed them so much.

then there was the visit to see my chiropractor.  Amazing stuff that.  He was surprised to find that I am healing faster than he'd expected.  :)  So proud of this I am.  I've been following the exercises I've been given and have worked hard to avoid some of the bad habits I've fallen into (crossing my legs for hours on end while I sit at my desk, leaning on one elbow, etc).  Funny thing is...I feel taller.  How weird.

so...as a reward... I write a tiny bit and then move on to Dim Sum and a Fat Tire.  *nod*  I deserve a little treat.

...maybe I'll even wrangle in some artwork tonight.  I need to draw... my hands ache to hold a pencil and put it to paper...

screw it

...I'm driving down there and bringing 'em all back.  I hate to cheat the ex out of his time with the little ones, but... the children need stability in their lives... not their own private cuckoos nest.


GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR